Reflecting on the Last Decade

Today is the last Sunday of 2019 and the last Sunday of another decade. So much has happened in these last 10 years, but so much has stayed the same - like having the same job and house. I've had  adventures and heartaches, happy and sad memories, good and poor health...

I've had 3 or 4 different cell phones, bought a car, updated the floors in my house, argued with teenagers, traveled with work, met dozens of people I now call friends, took a dream vacation to Hawaii, attended concerts, bought a bicycle, helped kids with homework, joined a class at church, watched my son graduate high school, watched my daughter earn a black belt in karate, learned how to do needle tatting, lost 30 lbs, let my hair get long again, started a blog to help me work through daily life, volunteered with Backpack Love, and yet...

I still hate to cook, wish I had a good exercise regimen, wish I would eat healthier, wish I could retire and do the vast number of projects I have in my head, wish I knew how to restore an old truck, wish I could read more (even though I read more than most people), wish I had a getaway house at the beach...

Life isn't about perfection. It's not about getting ahead of others. It's not about getting stuff or going places. Life is about relationships with people and acknowledging God so He will direct my path. 

Colossians 1:9-11 For this reason we also, since the day we heard it, do not cease to pray for you, and to ask that you may be filled with the knowledge of His will in all wisdom and spiritual understanding; that you may walk worthy of the Lord, fully pleasing Him, being fruitful in every good work and increasing in the knowledge of God; strengthened with all might, according to His glorious power for all patience and longsuffering with joy;

Christmas Busy

It began last Sunday, hence the reason I had no post. After church my Bible study class got together for lunch, gifts and a hilarious Bible trivia game. Wednesday, my BFF and I attended the Michael W Smith/Marc Martel Christmas Concert with the Atlanta Symphony Orchestra. Thursday brought the office party with hot chocolate, a baby shower and lunch. Saturday I attended Christmas party with the group from the Sonflower Ministries retreat that I participated in last month, as well as a Christmas presentation at a local church. Now, I'm just a couple of hours away from going to another Christmas gathering. 

I'm still not finished with gifts for my family, but I'm not feeling stressed about it either. I'm not attempting to outdo last year, mainly because I don't even recall what I gifted them with last year. I suppose getting a little older helps with that! :D

Even in all of the busyness, I'm trying to stay focused on the reason for the season. I'm thinking about the birth of Christ and the fact that neither Jesus nor his parents received gifts upon His birth. Instead He was God's gift for us. The shepherds who got to see him first had no gifts, but instead made his birth widely known. They were messengers just as we should be. 

Luke 2:10-11,16-17 Then the angel said to them, "Do not be afraid, for behold, I bring you good tidings of great joy which will be to all people. For there is born to you this day in the city of David a Savior, who is Christ the Lord...And they came with haste and found Mary and Joseph, and the Babe lying in a manger. Now when they had seen Him, they made widely known the saying which was told them concerning this Child. 

Giving Thanks

Have you ever made a list of what you are thankful for? I'm not sure that I have, but I'm willing to give it a try. Here is an incomplete list of things I enjoy, in no particular order. 

I am thankful for Jesus, family, good health, living in the US, friends, home, car, photos, sunshine, rain, crafts, books, church, Bible, plants, Christmas, work, washing machine, bicycles, music, sweet tea, BBQ, snow, math, indoor plumbing, doctors, vacations, Hallmark movies, UGA football, chocolate, hammocks, swings, campfires, Christmas lights, adventures, sweaters, jeans, sand, warm breezes, hugs, laughter, neighbors, hot water, radios, Cracker Jacks, fuzzy socks, streams, trees, garage door openers, rings, ocean waves, travel, and the list continues.

Some are necessities, some are joys, some are gifts, all are from God. 

Romans 11:36 For of Him and through Him and to Him are all things, to whom be glory forever. Amen.

Rainy Day Rest

I may be unlike many people, but I love rainy days. Especially those days when I can stay home. Days like that feel rare because there are always too many things to accomplish, at least in my mind. I view it as a day to choose to rest and I welcome those days when I can curl up with a book and a cup of Hawaiian coffee. I can sit for hours just listening to the quiet of the rain and being captivated by a well-written story. 

Saturday was just such a day for me. There was nothing on the agenda, except for one goal of vacuuming the floors. I was up around 8, sitting in my oversized chair in the bay window, sipping on decaf Kauai coffee, and starting on a Christian suspense novel. I vaguely remember getting up on occasion, but honestly I was completely absorbed. I finished the book by 1:30, but instead of starting on the floors I picked up the sequel to that book and began again. After reading 1/3 of that book, I finally made myself get up and start cleaning - so I really did get that one goal checked off the neverending list. 

I am so thankful for the rain and for the rest. 

Psalm 147:7-9 Sing to the Lord with thanksgiving; sing praises on the harp to our God, who covers the heavens with clouds, who prepares rain for the earth, who makes grass to grow on the mountains. 

The Next Friend

When I was in 8th grade, I knew exactly where I would be going to high school and I knew that all of my close friends and acquaintances would be there with me. Not so in this generation. Our county has what is called Program of Choice. That means that an 8th grader can apply to any high school in the county and have their parent drive them to their selected oasis. Except it's not that simple. First they must decide which program is a good fit for them, then apply with essays, video responses, and teacher recommendations. It's like interviewing for a job. Talk about stressful and they are only 13!

We attended a couple of high school presentations and we agreed on the right program for her. It will add an hour of commute time each day, but I'm willing to do that. However that is not the issue. It's friends, or lack of friends that are planning to attend that high school. Yes, I know that is scary. I remember that the first month of high school is a terror. She has a great friend group right now and it's going to be broken up as they go to different high schools. She's worried about meeting and making friends who are believers and will like her. The insecurities at her age are endless and I seem to be ill-equipped to guide her through these choppy waters. 

Proverbs 12:26 The righteous should choose his friends carefully, for the way of the wicked leads them astray. 

May I appeal to you to help pray for her to be placed in the right school and with at least one friend who is a true believer? 

Adventures Galore

I should always be a little wary of complacency. I've been feeling a stirring for change over the past few months and I certainly received it big time over the past two weeks. Let me just list what I've done.

1. Drove to Savannah to work for 2 days
2. Drove to Clayton State for a conference (also presented a session)
3. Attended a state organization board meeting
4. Participated in a 48 hour ladies retreat (wow!)
5. Visited 2 high schools with my daughter (it's time to choose!)
6. Cooked a couple of meals (that's so rare!)
7. Washed 6 loads of laundry (I couldn't do any last weekend.)
8. Walked in a 5K on Saturday (It was in the 40s!)

Needless to say, I've been busy. However I see it as a grand adventure and I feel very alive now (except for the part where I need a little extra sleep). :D

Psalm 16:11 You will show me the path of life; in Your presence is fullness of joy; at Your right hand are pleasures forevermore. 

Birthday Girl

On the 17th we celebrated my son's birthday and today we are celebrating my mom's birthday. Mom is the planner of details; I believe I get that from her. :D She wants everyone to be happy and she'll do all she can to be sure that we are. She'll make us whatever dessert we want for our birthday, which is a definite plus!

Mom likes to keep up with the whereabouts of dad, her kids and grandkids. Last year my 13 year old and I added Life 360 to our phones so we could track each other. Dad wanted in on it, but mom said no because she didn't want us to know where she was. Within a week, she kept grabbing Daddy's phone to locate us. I looked at her saying, you know, we could add you to our little group. She finally agreed and now she can track all 3 of us. :D

I'm teasing, but it's nice to know that someone cares so much about you that they'll make your favorite dessert and keep an eye out for your safety. 

Psalm 31: 25-29 Strength and honor are her clothing; she shall rejoice in time to come. She opens her mouth with wisdom, and on her tongue is the law of kindness. She watches over the ways of her household, and does not eat the bread of idleness. Her children rise up and call her blessed; her husband also, and he praises her; "Many daughters have done well, but you excel them all."

Birthday Boy

This week we celebrated my son's 19th birthday. I always think of the week of his birth as the time when summer turns to fall, the leaves change colors and baseball playoffs are in full swing. That's what I remember most about entering the hospital back in 2000. It was warm and sunny, then upon leaving it was as if I had been locked away while the season changed. 

Thankfully my son was able to come home from UGA for a few hours to have dinner and cake. We made the most of our time together. I think I'll recall the laughter more than anything. It was just joyous occasion and I hated for it to end.

One of my gifts to him was a small Bible with a snap to close it. I've had it for many years and used it mostly at church, so he was very familiar with it. I handed it to him and he started to give it back, saying he had a Bible. It was then that I told him that I had transferred all of my notes from my main Bible to that one. He opened it and looked around. I was so happy when he closed it up, put it with his stuff and said "Thank you."

Proverbs 9:9-10 Give instruction to a wise man, and he will be still wiser; Teach a just man, and he will increase in learning. The fear of the Lord is the beginning of wisdom, And the knowledge of the Holy One is understanding.

The Gateway Arch

I skipped my blog last Sunday because I was en route to St. Louis for a conference. I had never visited that area and it was a great trip. We arrived mid-afternoon, rode a commuter train to a hotel, dumped our luggage with the concierge desk and high-tailed it across the street to enjoy the end of the Braves vs. Cardinals post-season Game 3. Somehow we got to see the Braves win a playoff game in another city. That's one for a bucket list!

The next afternoon we visited the Gateway Arch. It was majestic, rising 630 ft from the edge of the Mississippi River. It had been recently renovated to include a new entry and a fabulous museum. It was quite the adventure! I was in awe of the architecture of an inverted catenary curve, with equilateral-triangle-shaped sections of 54 feet at the base, tapering to 17 feet at the top. I even returned another day just to walk around the outside and gawk at the design. 

As breathtaking as the Gateway Arch is today, I imagine it will pale in comparison to His gates. 

Psalm 100:4a Enter into His gates with thanksgiving, and into His courts with praise. 

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A Visit

I had not seen my son for a month until last night. He surprised me with a visit after spending the last three weeks in Athens for UGA games. I can't blame him at all because staying for the games is exactly what I would have done! :)

He looked good and it seems he has adjusted to the college life. It's tough starting off in a new place with new people and new classes, but he seemed to have a plan to carry out his goals. I'm so very proud of him, but mostly just happy to be able to hug him. 

A blessing for the children of Israel and a prayer for my son as he returns to campus:

Numbers 6:24-26 "The Lord bless you and keep you; the Lord make His face to shine upon you, and be gracious to you; the Lord lift up His countenance  upon you, and give you peace."

Letting Go

If you've been following my posts this summer, you might have noticed that I've been struggling with contentment. I've been writing about stress, relaxation, working, and escaping. Part of my unrest is due to working at one place for 29 years and knowing that I cannot retire because of my age. I feel a bit off-kilter because I could stay with what I'm doing for at least 6 more years or I could explore other pathways. I'm at a crossroad and I'm not sure whether to keep going in the same direction or not. 

I spent most of the week at a conference in Savannah and it was just what I needed. I took some time to talk with friends, enjoy a stroll downtown, and just chill. It was an opportunity to let go of the things on my mind and enjoy being in the moment. It was relaxing and restful, and just what I needed. 

Romans 14:19 Therefore let us pursue the things which make for peace and the things by which one may edify another. 

Remembering

I always find my emotions in turmoil on September 11th. I'm transported back in time with every tribute, flag, prayer, or mention of that horrific day in 2001. I was teaching night classes and caring for my 11 month old during the day. I had just taken him to the doctor and was in the parking lot of an Eckerd's Drugs waiting on a prescription. I was playing the radio when the first report broke. I listened intently as the music stopped and the round the clock reporting began. I retrieved his medicine and drove to my parents' house. They were not aware of the events taking place. I turned on the TV and saw the first images of the towers. 

In just over an hour, life as we knew it changed. There was fear, anger, and a desire to escape. My thoughts were all over the place. My grandfather had passed away 3 months earlier and though I missed him terribly, I was thankful he didn't see it happen. I wondered how life would be different for us and this baby. I wanted to be isolated and at the same time I wanted to be around others. I watched the coverage all day, until I couldn't take the images any more. Even today, I can only watch it for short periods of time. 

In the days following the attack, churches were overflowing with people seeking answers and offering support. If only it didn't take tragedies to understand the power available. 

Isaiah 40:29-31 He gives power to the weak, and to those who have no might He increases strength. Even the youths shall faint and be weary, and the young men shall utterly fall, but those who wait on the Lord shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings like eagles, they shall run and not be weary, they shall walk and not faint.

Garage Therapy

I've been working on cleaning out my garage for the past couple of weeks. That has advantages and disadvantages. My garage has been the dumping ground of all things that didn't seem to have a permanent home for maybe the last 15 years. That ranged from toys to yearbooks to papers the kids have done at school. I've spent hours on multiple days going through these boxes in hopes of getting everything organized. I would estimate that I'm halfway to my goal of placing everything in "keep it, toss it, or donate it" piles.  

Working in the garage is relaxing, mind-numbing, emotional, thought-provoking and exhausting. It's like visiting a therapist. As I'm going through the boxes, I'm remembering a variety of events with as many emotions as could be named. I've found cards from people I've lost, photos of carefree days, tiny hand prints from my kids, and mementos of so many events. 

Digging through this has made me smile, cry, laugh, get angry and realize that life is messy. It's all those events packed up in boxes, both literally and figuratively, that you have to unpack every now and then to understand how you got from point A to point B. 

Psalm 56:8 You number my wanderings; put my tears in Your bottle; are they not in Your book? 

Escape

There are days when I love my job and days when I don't. Each August seems to be the latter. It's a test of endurance, lots of stress and all-around wondering when it will end, as we attempt to award financial aid to students who are submitting information at the last minute. Exhaustion plays a big role and I hit my limit earlier this year. For that reason, I decided to take a day away from work last Tuesday.

There were a couple of reasons for the escape. I didn't get enough sleep on Sunday night and didn't perform well at work on Monday; I hadn't seen my son in a couple of weeks; and I just wanted to get in my car and drive.

I found a flimsy excuse to go to Athens and began my out-of-the office day. As I traveled, I pulled out some old CDs (yes, I still listen to CDs!) and sang along. I delivered some stuff to my son at UGA (all of 5 minutes of face time), visited our other campus and talked shop, had lunch with a friend working in the area, came back to pick up my daughter from school, set up Fitbits for mom and dad, then headed home.

It sounds kind of dull, but it was one of the best days I've had in a while. It was an opportunity to let go the cares of the job, the constant working around the house, and give my mind a chance to rest. I need to learn how to keep the pressure from building. I need to remember these instructions more often.

Psalm 124:7-8 Our soul has escaped as a bird from the snare of the fowlers; the snare is broken, and we have escaped. Our help is in the name of the Lord, Who made heaven and earth. 

Stress and Joy

I've been away from my blog for the past two weeks because of various reasons.  My laptop seems to have picked up a virus, I've been stessing about work, and now I've misplaced my Fitbit. I've been losing things a lot lately.  I think it's because I'm juggling a little too much and getting distracted.  Focus is my word for next week!

You might have noticed the name of this post is Stress and Joy. How can I have joy when there is so much stress? Well I've found that most joy comes by spending time with my family and my friends.  They are absolute gifts from above! This weekend has been extra busy with a concert one night and a fireworks show the next night, but most enjoyable because of time spent with others.  

I often go back to Ecclesiastes 3 when I think of "my people:. I share my ups and downs with them and I'm so thankful for the joy that brings.  

Ecclesisates 3:4;6  A time to weep, and a time to laugh; a time to mourn, and a time to dance; A time to get, and a time to lose; a time to keep, and a time to cast away;

Find What's Best

I am in the midst of my two busiest work weeks of the year. Trying to get financial aid on students' accounts before they get late fees or get dropped turns into really long days working so intently that you know the pace can't continue. It's just too much!

On the way to work Monday I was listening to the song "Breathe" by Johnny Diaz. Some of the lyrics caught my attention.

There's gotta be something more to this crazy life
I'm hanging on tight to another wild day
When it starts to fall apart in my heart I hear you say just

Breathe, just breathe
Come and rest at my feet
And be, just be
Chaos calls but all you really need

Is to take it in, fill your lungs
The peace of God that overcomes
Just breathe (just breathe)
let your weary spirit rest
Lay down what's good and find what's best

I've heard this song so many times, but the last line here really caught my attention. I wonder if I'm doing what I should be doing when it comes to working. Yes, it's a good job and I am able to do good for others. But am I doing my best; is this what I should be doing; does it take too much time from family; is it affecting my health? Just some things to contemplate this year.

Numbers 18:29 You must present as the Lord's portion the best and holiest part of everything given to you. (NIV)

Celebration Part 2

This is the time of year that is busiest for me at work. I often work longer hours and that's tough when it's that last few weeks before the kids start back to school. However, I took a 1/2 day on Wednesday afternoon to spend with my son. He graduated in May as the Valedictorian at his high school, but he was not notified of a celebration at the Governor's Mansion and we missed it. When I found out about the event, I contacted a person that I knew was involved and asked what happened. They said other students were also unable to attend and the Governor had offered to have them visit the state capitol and have a photo with him. Hence the reason I took off one afternoon during my busiest time of the year.

We had a quick lunch and headed to Atlanta. We walked through Liberty Plaza and saw a replica of the Liberty Bell - very cool. Next we explored the Capitol, seeing the rotunda and the portraits of past Governors. Finally, he got his 5 minutes with Governor Kemp. When Gov. Kemp saw me taking a photo, he invited me to have a picture with him and my son. :)

As we left, we came upon a memorial to Georgians who fought and died during the wars of the 20th and 21st centuries. It was beautiful and I really enjoyed experiencing that with my son. Overall it was a fantastic day that I got to celebrate with my first born.

Proverbs 23:24-25 The father of the righteous will greatly rejoice, and he who begets a wise child will delight in him. Let your father and your mother be glad, and let her who bore you rejoice. 

No Anxious Mind

We all need rest. We all need those occasional escapes from our every day lives. We all should take a vacation. It renews the body, spirit and mind - if you successfully remove the stress you normally feel. That's always my goal on vacation, but it's not always easy when your kids are young. This year my 13 year old and I planned a trip to the beach.

I recalled that in previous years, I was almost always her entertainment committee. "Mom, let's go to the beach. Mom, let's go to the pool. Mom, let's..." My goal was to avoid that again by having one of her friends go with us. It was a risk no doubt, however, I told her to ask her 'lowest maintenance friend'. After explaining what I meant, she declared her BFF to be that person. Fortunately, she was correct. They were both easy going, pleasant, willing to help out, and truly good travel partners.

As for me, it gave the chance to really relax, enjoy the sun, read a couple books and not care about the time or needing to expend energy making sure someone else had fun. I think it was the most relaxed I've been in years. :)

Luke 12:29-30 And do not seek what you should eat or what you should drink, nor have an anxious mind. For all these things the nations of the world seek after, and your Father knows that you need these things. 

Liberty

We celebrated America's Independence Day this week across the land. Some people watched fireworks, some enjoyed a day at the lake, some had cookouts, and some had to work. I was fortunate to have a few days away from the office, for which I was ever so grateful. I had my ideal day. I spent the morning reading a book while drinking my Hawaiian coffee. I grilled out for the first time in years, which I hope to do more often now. When the sun set, I was in the swing on my back porch watching neighbors send some fireworks into the air.

As I look back on the day and week, I am very thankful to live in the US. I am thankful for the liberty we enjoy, for those who gave us our freedom and those who help us keep that freedom. I am not imprisoned or enslaved. I am given the liberty to choose the kind of day wanted to experience. I am also given the ability to choose true liberty.

II Corinthians 3:17 Now the Lord is the Spirit; and where the Spirit of the Lord is, there is liberty.

Stress and Relaxation

It's been a busy, stressful year, with many things happening in May and early June. I pushed through and got it all done, but began feeling yucky and not quite normal. It's not the first time and it never happens the same way, however it's as if my body has put all of the stress in a little box until I get the chance to rest and then let's it out to wreak havoc on me physically. 

I've found that the best way to combat it is to lower the stress (if possible), take some time off, eat healthier (because that never happens when the pressure is on), exercise more and re-evaluate what I'm doing. It's not all at once and I definitely take baby steps because I have to get myself motivated for each step. 

I took a step yesterday when I spent the whole day with my best friend. We drove an hour and a half away to attend a concert. We left early to go shopping and just chill. We didn't play the radio, but talked all the way there and back. I think the only time we didn't talk was while we were eating or enjoying the concert. 

Proverbs 27:9 Ointment and perfume delight the heart, and the sweetness of a man's friend gives delight by hearty counsel.

I got home at 12:30 am, but awoke in time to go to my Bible class and church. I felt good this morning and happy. Let the healing begin!

Be Specific

We have small groups in my Sunday morning Bible class and over the summer we switch around to meet new people in the small setting. My new leader asked us specifically what we needed to pray about. She said that she was learning to be more specific than general about her prayers so that she could list a begin date, the need and a date when the prayer was answered.

Let's say I wanted to walk more for exercise. I can say it in general and never really succeed, or I can specifically decide I will walk 3 times per week for 30 minutes, recruit some friends and plan times to walk.

A prayer would be the same way. Perhaps you pray for a friend to be involved in church activities. Well, that prayer is very general. A more specific prayer would be to choose an event that might interest them and pray for them to attend that event; to meet new friends at the event, etc. It's a more focused prayer and one that you will recognize when it has been answered. 

Mark 10:51a So Jesus answered and said to him, "What do you want Me to do for you?"

Father's Day

I just spent the last few hours sitting with my family as we celebrated Father's Day. We simply had an impromptu gathering at my parents' home, bringing our own take out to eat. Daddy talked about the car show he participated in yesterday, the great restaurant they found in TN, his Dad's bicycle shop in Gainesville way back in the day, and various other topics. I always enjoy those conversations that just run all over the place.

My Dad will often come up with something quirky to toss into our conversations. Today's comment revolved around two subjects: my mom warning my 13 year old to not sleep with her phone and a mention of how the pediatrician told my daughter that she might end up being shorter than I am (oh, that was terrible news for her!). So my Dad stands up and says to my daughter that sleeping with her phone could stunt her growth up to 1/2 inch each year. Bahahaha!

Nope my Daddy doesn't tell corny dad jokes, he just makes things up!  Never a dull moment! Happy Father's Day, Daddy! Love you bunches!

Proverbs 17:6 Children's children are the crown of old men, and the glory of children is their father. 

And in no way am I saying you are old! ;)

A Day Off

I've been going at top speed for the last month and when I realized that we were in for a full day of rain on a Saturday, I was smiling. I declared it my 'day off'. I planned nothing except a crock pot meal. Otherwise, it was dedicated to Hawaiian coffee and reading. 

I even stayed in bed until 8 am. When I rose, I made 4 cups of my favorite coffee and settled myself into a big comfy chair in my bay window. I was planted in that spot most of the day. It was wonderful as I escaped into my book and listened to the rains fall. 

With so much rain there were flood warnings, but we were tucked away inside. It reminded me of Noah and his family safely ensconced in the ark. 

Gen 7:16 So those that entered, male and female of all flesh, went in as God had commanded him; and the Lord shut him in. 

It's at this point that I wonder what they did to pass the time. There was no field to work, no carpentry to complete (that was done), only caring for the animals and themselves. Did they have things to read? Did they play games? Did they simply rest? 

Maybe Noah and his family had some quiet, unhurried days during their time on the ark. Sometimes it's tough to allow yourself those days because there are so many things that need to be done. But you know what? Those are the days you will remember fondly. 

Celebration

My son didn't want his graduation party on the same day as his graduation, so we postponed the celebration for a week. Between the actual graduation and the party, my daughter had a week of church camp and I had a week away for a work conference. Needless to say, the party had to be planned weeks in advance. It was tough, but all of the planning and assigning jobs to other people paid off in allowing me to really enjoy the celebration. 

The party was to celebrated his graduation from high school as valedictorian, his graduation from college with an Associate's degree and his acceptance to UGA in the Air Force ROTC program. My son did a great job of thanking guests and personally talking with all of them, without ever being told (at least not by me!). He graciously took photos with anyone who asked and actually smiled. :D I was so proud that he took ownership of the party and I do believe that he, his friends, and all of the family enjoyed themselves. I know that I certainly did!

Ecclesiastes 5:18 Here is what I have seen: It is good and fitting for one to eat and drink, and to enjoy the good of all his labor in which he toils under the sun all the days of his life which God gives him; for it is his heritage. 

Now we are getting ready to launch him into a year at UGA, my alma mater. I'm sure it will be much different than it was in the mid-80s, but I'm hopeful that he will enjoy it. 

Graduation

Yesterday, my firstborn graduated from high school. It was quite a day since he was part of the first graduating class of a new high school, as well as the valedictorian. I was nervous about his speech because I never got to hear it in advance. However, I had nothing to be concerned about. He did a great job and looked very comfortable up on stage. I am so proud of all he has accomplished!

And now the next chapter of his life begins with college and a career. He still wants to be a pilot and is working toward that goal. He amazes me with his focus and drive. Graduation is not an end, but a beginning for the rest of his life. Here is my prayer for him.

Proverbs 9:9-11 Give instruction to a wise man, and he will be still wiser; teach a just man, and he will increase in learning. The fear of the Lord is the beginning of wisdom, and the knowledge of the Holy One is understanding. For by me your days will be multiplied, and years of life will be added to you.

How was your week?

Every Sunday morning when we break up into small groups in my Bible Fellowship class, I'm asked, "How was your week?" I should expect it, plan for it, and be ready with a response because replying, "Fine." just doesn't cut it. Inevitably it's followed with, "So tell me what happened." Normally I can recall what I did, even if I have no recollection of what I ate yesterday. However today, I just sat there like a guppy, unable to pull a simple sentence out of my head. :D

Am I forgetful? Maybe. I have been known to look at a calendar to see what I had scheduled so I could recall what I did during the week. However this past week I had nothing written on my calendar. I know I was busy, but it would take some effort to reconstruct my week. I always seem to know what's ahead in my schedule. Perhaps I just like to live in the moment and look forward. I would probably do me good to focus a little further forward than just the next week. 

II Peter 3:13-14 Nevertheless we, according to His promise, look for new heavens and a new earth in which righteousness dwells. Therefore, beloved, looking forward to these things, be diligent to be found by Him in peace, without spot and blameless:

Mother's Day

This has been an exceptionally tough week at work and I am very thankful for my Mom who stepped up to help me out all week! She shuttled my daughter to and from school most of the week. She and Daddy took me out to lunch on Friday. Even when I had to work on Saturday, she performed a miracle by getting my daughter to help her clean our house, do laundry, put away clothes and change the beds. What a blessing to not have to "be the mom" this week! My mom is such a Supermom that it's easy to follow what God tells us to do!

Leviticus 19:3 Every one of you shall revere his mother and his father, and keep My Sabbaths: I am the Lord your God. 

ACS Relay for Life

Since 2004, I've been a part of my school's Relay for Life Team. I try to raise money each year for cancer research. Friday night I walked with my team. It's evolved over the years, as there is only one member that continues as I have. We were talking about how the team and the walk have changed over the past 15 years. Still, we are fighting for the same goal - to rid the world of cancer. Will it happen? No, because we live in a fallen world. However, to give hope and a chance for someone to have a good life is always my goal. 

Galatians 5:13 For you, brethren, have been called to liberty [freedom]; only do not use liberty [freedom] as an opportunity for the flesh, but through love serve one another.

#placewalkers

Over the years one of the most common things I hear a person say is that they need to exercise more. I'm guilty of the same thing. In my 20s I would go to the gym after work. Later with a family, I would have felt guilty for breaking away to exercise. Now I realize that I should have been doing it all along, both for my physical and mental health.

Last week I decided to try something new, which I'm naming #placewalkers. I went to my church on Tuesday after work and began to walk the parking lot. I was alone, but not. I started at the 80 ft cross and began walking and thinking. I prayed for what I was doing and if it was something I should do. I observed things around the church campus that I had never before noticed. After 30 minutes, I arrived back at the cross to complete the lap. 

I invited a few people to join me, but walked alone again on Thursday. I listened to the new "Repurposing Podcast" from Christ Place Church. [It was very insightful, having men tell their stories of faith.] Last night and today I invited people from my church small group to join me on my walks. I'm going to give it a little more time to see if this is really something that I should be doing to help build groups and bridge gaps between church and our community. 

I began these walks the Tuesday after Easter. It reminds me of the two followers of Jesus who were walking on the road to Emmaus after the crucifixion (Luke 24:13-35), because it's possible that walking and sharing with others could be just what some people need so that Jesus is made known to them.

Luke 24:13,35 Now behold, two of them were traveling the same day to a village called Emmaus, which was seven mile from Jerusalem...And they told about the things that had happened on the road, and how He was known to them in the breaking of bread. 

Easter Weekend

I awoke on Friday to rain, high winds and a tornado siren. The torrential downpours made driving difficult and the rough weather produced many warnings for flooding. It was a day that made me very aware of my surroundings.

Saturday was the first ever 5K at my church. (It was also my fist ever 5K!) It was a cold 43, windy and overcast. I dressed in double layers with gloves and earmuffs. I really didn't look like a runner and I wasn't. I walked the race with my Bible class. I crossed the finish line at number 305! :D Regardless, I enjoyed the walk with my friends and just had a fun time in the bitter cold. 

Sunday began sunny and cool. I was grateful that the temps rose quickly and we were able to wear our chosen outfits to church. My son and daughter sat with me through the service and made me feel much love. We had a quick lunch after and just sat and talked for a little while. JOY! 

Someone on Facebook noted the interesting pattern of the weather this weekend. It was a picture of the Easter weekend:

Friday brought storms, tornadoes and flooding similar to that Friday long ago that saw the death of Jesus with darkness, earthquakes, and the tearing of the temple veil. Saturday arrived with bitter cold and drizzle, as if the skies were mourning the death of Jesus as he lay in the tomb. Sunday came along with brilliant sunshine and temperatures warm enough to bask in the glow, as we celebrated the resurrection of Jesus Christ. 

Matthew 28:6a  He is not here; for He is risen, as He said. 

I Peter 1:3-4 Blessed be the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, who according to His abundant mercy has begotten us again to a living hope through the resurrection of Jesus Christ from the dead, to an inheritance incorruptible and undefiled and that does not fade away, reserved in heaven for you.

Picnic

For as long as I can remember, the school where I work has had a spring picnic for all faculty and staff members. We would bring a side dish or dessert, while a local company donated enough chicken to feed everyone. The guys who work in Plant Operations eventually took on the job of grilling the chicken by getting starting it at 5 am on the day of the event. 

It's always been a time to gather, relax and visit with old friends. When our school consolidated with another, we weren't sure that the venture would continue, but fortunately it has. We gathered on Tuesday this week to take part in our spring picnic. The forecast called for rain, but it was a warm and mostly sunny day. The food was great, as always, and the time to visit with others was wonderful. 

It makes such a big difference in your work environment when you are able to break away for an hour or two and just spend time talking to friends that you don't see on a daily basis. I hope I never forget to do that, even when I'm no longer working at the school.

Ecclesiastes 8:15 So I commended enjoyment, because a man has nothing better under the sun that to eat, drink, and be merry; for this will remain with him in his labor all the days of his life which God gives him under the sun. 

Spring Break

As is customary, I took off last week for my daughter's spring break. We didn't plan a trip, but tried to enjoy our free time just the same. On Sunday, I went to church, had a quick lunch and picked up my BFF at the airport. When I got back home, I was inspired to actually cook. In fact, I pledged to not buy a meal out for me until the next Sunday. [You see, my life is so hectic that I eat out as many as 10 meals a week.] However, I ate out on Monday for my Dad's birthday just because. I also ate out Thursday, but didn't pay for it. That shouldn't count, right? :D

This week I wanted to do as Jesus had instructed His disciples.

Mark 6:31 And He said to them, "Come aside by yourselves to a deserted place and rest a while." For there were many coming and going, and they did not even have time to eat."

During the week I cooked burgers, a turkey dinner, meatloaf and salsa chicken. I even cooked real mashed potatoes! My child ate some of it with me, but I often found her with a Hawaiian Sweet Roll or a Pop Tart. Unfortunately, we eat out too often for her to appreciate real food. :/

I read a lot, talked to the child a lot, watched a couple of Hallmark movies and did random things like cleaning out the laundry room and cutting back some forsythia bushes. I tried to go get my passport application done, but the one hour wait was longer than I was willing to spend. We did go biking on Thursday, which I thoroughly enjoyed, along with the Kauai coffee on Saturday morning. Yum!

The week was mostly uneventful, but restful, peaceful and oh so needed. 

93

93! That's the number of men, women, boys and girls baptized at my church this morning! There were couples, children, college students and new believers. It was amazing, joyful and better than expected. This day had been planned for months and 68 had signed up to profess their faith in Jesus with believer's baptism. Another 25 got up from their seats after hearing the sermon and joined them.

The story that struck us most was a young lady who had just left a life of prostitution within the last month. She was beautiful! You could see the light of Jesus shining through her. One of the pastors had her Bible and read the verse that she showed him.

Matthew 21:31c Jesus said to them, "Truly I tell you, the tax collectors and the prostitutes are entering the kingdom of God ahead of you. 

Our senior pastor then recounted the story of the woman who anointed Jesus' feet with oil and tears, wiping them with her hair.

Luke 7:47a Wherefore I say unto thee, Her sins, which are many, are forgiven; for she loved much.

What a great day!

UGA

I'm a graduate of the University of Georgia. Growing up it was my dream school. It was just part of my plan to finish the last two years of my bachelor's program as a Dawg. Since he was 13, my son has only ever wanted to attend the US Air Force Academy. He has dreams of being a pilot and he sees that as the best way to do it. It's difficult to be accepted to the USAFA, and we are still waiting to hear from them. 

However, my son needed a back-up plan and that's when I began talking up UGA. He told me that the Air Force had ROTC programs at UGA, GATech and Valdosta. (We were staying in state because of the Zell Miller Scholarship.) He was leaning toward GT, but suddenly decided on UGA. (Go Dawgs!) He applied for the ROTC Scholarships and interviewed with leaders of the program. He only applied to the USAFA and UGA.

This week, he heard from UGA. He was accepted and awarded the Commander's Scholarship. That's a full 4 year, all expenses paid scholarship. I was thrilled and amazed! I asked if he wanted to celebrate and he said, "Not yet." Wow! This is the best back-up plan I have ever seen!

Proverbs 23: 24-25 The father of the righteous will greatly rejoice, and he who begets a wise child will delight in him. Let your father and your mother be glad, and let her who bore you rejoice.

Overcoming the Overwhelming

After a great "mountaintop" Sunday, I spent the remainder of the week feeling overwhelmed. I had too many projects at work because of being short-staffed; the house was a mess; I couldn't keep up with my Bible study; my son was hurt, eliciting a visit to the doctor; I had to go out of town overnight for a workshop; I didn't get my volunteer work done; I didn't exercise enough; my side business didn't get any attention; and I didn't cook a single meal (except for the scrambled eggs one night, or the cereal if you count that as cooking).

I don't know what you do when you feel overwhelmed, but I tend to shut down and get even less done. I decided to get up Saturday and attempt to finish...something. That turned out to be a good thing. In general, my house is now clean and that gives me the desire to do a little more. I ordered a few groceries online and picked them up right after I donated some excess stuff to the local thrift store. My son was feeling better, so we played ping pong for a while. The day was different that the week leading up to it, which gave me hope.

John 16:33 These things I have spoken to you, that in Me you may have peace. In the world you will have tribulation; but be of good cheer, I have overcome the world. 

Now I want to be of good cheer this week and focus on overcoming the things that tripped me up last week. 

Make a Difference

Today we completed the first of five Make A Difference weekends that my church has scheduled for this year. This was the Feed the 5000 event. Many people donated money, collected addresses of families with food scarcity and volunteered to load and/or deliver boxes of food. 

It began yesterday when my middle-school child and her group delivered boxes to families in need. The group delivered over 200 boxes. Today the rest of the church took part to help deliver another 1000 boxes. And it wasn't just one box per family; there were 4 boxes: a box of food to feed a family of 4 for the week, a box of hygiene products, and 2 boxes of snack food, plus a bag of bread. 

As expected, the topic of the sermon was Jesus feeding the 5000. Pastor Jeff did a great job connecting with the congregation that was full of visitors. He had a great illustration about how putting something into the right person's hands make all the difference. He grabbed a guitar and made a joyful 'noise', then our guitarist came out to take it from him as proceeded to play the opening bars of "Sweet Home Alabama". :D

John 6:11 And Jesus took the loaves, and when He had given thanks He distributed them to the disciples, and the disciples to those sitting down; and likewise of the fish, as much as they wanted. 

So I need to always remember to put things in the hands of Jesus, like asking others to join me in these Make A Difference weekends. This time I was thrilled to have a couple of my friends attend church just to help me with the event and we ended up delivering food to 4 homes.

Good Courage

This week I stepped out of my comfort zone to take part in a Lip Sync Contest. I've done it before for a group of about 100 at work, but this time it was a regional conference with about 200 people in attendance. Why? I'm not sure. Perhaps it was to prove to myself that I could. Maybe it was to show others that it's okay to put yourself out there in order to give joy. Regardless, it was nerve-wracking and fun at the same time. 

Some people will never challenge themselves beyond their comfort zone. You know, most of the time I fly under the radar, sit back and observe. However, there's not much growth in those situations. When you want or desire a change, it seems that you must do something a little scary. It doesn't necessarily mean getting up in front of a group. (I'll admit that is a little extreme!) Perhaps it's just introducing yourself to someone new or signing up for your first 5K or inviting someone to church, even though they've declined more times than you can recall. 

Ask God to put on your heart what He wants you to do.

Psalm 31:24 Be of good courage, and He shall strengthen your heart, all you who hope in the Lord. 

A Joyful Week

What started out as a normal, hum-drum week, turned into a very joyful week. I began Monday frustrated with work. Too many errors in a project that needed to be error-free was beginning to get me down. On Wednesday I had to drive to Macon for a system meeting and that turned the entire week around. The meeting ended early, but in the room I had access to several of the people from other agencies who sat with me and looked at my errors. We came up with a plan and although it will take a bit of work, I think it is doable so that I can see the light at the end of the tunnel!

The remainder of the work week was spent on that project with some significant success. :) Friday I walked in to a decorated office because my birthday was on Saturday. That was super cool! I even had some of my office mates watch me practice a lip sync routine. (I'll tell you about that next week.) Their advice was much appreciated because I definitely want to do well for the real thing.

Saturday I celebrated my birthday. In the 30 minutes before I turned 53, I started training for my first 5K. Wow, it's going to take some effort and determination! But it's for a good cause and I don't want to walk the whole thing. 

My mom cooked me a gluten-free, wheat-free, milk-free cake. For someone who can't eat those things, the cake was wonderful! She even decorated it like she did when I was younger and Dad helped by cleaning up (aka eating up) any extra icing. :D  My sister came and we all enjoyed some fun chill time. :)

Sunday I was thrilled when my son came to sit with me at church. Afterward, we went out for lunch. I love this time we spend together because I know he'll be off to college very soon. <3

With my post this week, I'll say that I'm making a joyful noise because only God could work all of this out!

Psalm 100:1-2 Make a joyful noise unto the Lord, all ye lands. Serve the Lord with gladness: come before his presence with singing. 

Getting Excited

Sometimes winter is just winter. It's cold, and with no snow it seems to drag on. This week we were treated to two days when the temps climbed above 70! Quite a change from the 20 degree temps just the week before. It was warm; it was beautiful; and it was just what I needed to get me motivated. I walked outside and basked in the most perfect weather since last fall.

I also spent some time cleaning out my garage (a major undertaking that still isn't complete!). I sold a couple of things I couldn't use and set aside things to donate. It'll be nice to be able to walk through the garage without stepping over something or banging my shin on a box. :)

Another project I'm excited about is something my church is doing on March 2nd and 3rd. It's a Make a Difference Weekend for our community in which we will feed 5,000 people by delivering a box of food to 1250 homes that are food insecure. What does that mean? Well, they don't have the resources to keep food in their pantry. They live and work week to week in hopes of having enough food to feed their families. 

John 21:15 So when they had eaten breakfast, Jesus said to Simon Peter, "Simon, son of Jonah, do you love Me more than there?" He said to Him, "Yes, Lord; You know that I love You." He said to him, "Feed My lambs."

I am excited about this service project! For only $30 we will be able to purchase a box of food that will feed a family of four for a week! If you are interested in joining me, check out the project online or send me an email at CrossSums@gmail.com. 

Snow Day

The schools in our area closed last Tuesday, basing the decision on the predicted snow/ice that was headed our way. I was so thankful to be out that day. The previous one had been a long 12 hour day traveling to and from a meeting in Macon. I was more than happy to turn off my alarm clock and stay inside while the temperatures took a nosedive that afternoon. Even with no bad weather, the kids were thrilled to be at home, even if they had to do "school from home." I also had time to cook a meal so that we weren't stopping for take-out at the end of busy day. I did decide to work from home for about 4 hours to get me in a good position to start work on Wednesday. 

Do you know what I noticed most? I was able to work uninterrupted. That was kind of eye opening. I knew I was interrupted a lot during my work day, but I never really realized all of the ways. I have phone calls, walk-ins, instant messages, and emails from on and off campus. I understood how little I get done the next day when I began with a plan in mind and made very little progress because of interruptions.

I'm now considering limiting my availability. Perhaps I should only look at my emails a few times a day instead of every time one arrives. Perhaps I should put a "Do Not Disturb" on my instant messenger a few times each day. Maybe close my door on occasion. But that's just for work. I get just as distracted at home. The phone, the email, the TV, and various forms of entertainment sometimes keep me away from more important things. Time with God. Time with family. Time with others. 

Psalm 37:23-24 The steps of a good man are ordered by the Lord, and He delights in his way. Though he fall, he shall not be utterly cast down; for the Lord upholds him with His hand. 

It's past time for the Lord to re-order my steps. 

Home Improvements

I moved into my house on April 2, 1993. I've painted, replaced the carpeting, finished rooms and generally just maintained the house for 25 years. This year, I decided to make a drastic change. I was so tired of the dust from carpet that I finally buckled down and made a decision to put in hardwood flooring. I knew it would be tough choosing it and moving everything around to have it installed. 

I picked the color and style in December, taking my Dad along to be sure it would look okay. :) Installation began on MLK day and was to last 4 days, however it lasted 5 days. My Dad came along every day to be sure everything turned out great and he even stayed Friday so I could go back to work as planned. Then he went to Home Depot for felt and non-skid pads for my chairs. Isn't he cool?

Mom helped me several days moving things around and when she offered to help put things back in place, I asked her to dust the floors instead. I think she made her step goal that day. ;) The kids helped too, clearing out rooms and closets. 

When you literally 'clean house', it's hard too put all the stuff back where it was. You don't want to mess up the place with clutter, with things you don't really need, with things that you are better off not keeping. 

Matthew 3:12 His winnowing fan is in His hand, and He will thoroughly clean out His threshing floor, and gather His wheat into the barn; but He will burn up the chaff with unquenchable fire.

Now the task becomes separating the wheat (good stuff) from the chaff (junk). Is January too early for a yard sale? :D

Healing for the Brokenhearted

I attend a very large church with about a dozen pastors assigned to various groups or programs. Late yesterday we got the news that one of our pastors "passed on to glory", as my Grandma would say. It was a shock. He was 5 years younger that me, with a wife and 3 children. His youngest and mine are the same age. Pastor Sterling was also the one who baptized my younger child just a few years ago. 

I have never been involved directly with his ministry, but I did participate in an online Bible study with his wife a few years ago. She was a great teacher and motivational person. They had a strong union, with Danielle and Sterling celebrating their 25th Anniversary last summer. 

Pastor Jeff gave a sermon today entitled "When There Are No Words". He was correct. The kind of news we got yesterday leaves a person with a multitude of thoughts and nothing to say. It hurts. It makes our everyday concerns seem trivial. Life is not about stuff or work or status. It's about people and Jesus, and pointing people to Jesus. 

Luke 4:18-19 "The Spirit of the Lord is upon Me, because He has anointed Me to preach the gospel to the poor; He has sent Me to heal the brokenhearted, to proclaim liberty to the  captives and recovery of sight to the blind, to set at liberty those who are oppressed; to proclaim the acceptable year of the Lord."

A New Year

Welcome to 2019! I stayed up on New Year's Eve just long enough to watch the ball drop, or at least watch it disappear into the smoke created from the fireworks. I actually missed the 00 on the countdown clock because I kept trying to figure out where the ball was on it's journey down the pole. :D Anyway, it arrived and I went to sleep. 

I don't typically make resolutions because I don't want the pressure. However, I do try to step back to look at the past year and determine what I would have changed or if I learned anything to make this a better year. 

I spent 2018 making one Facebook post each day about Joy. It was a lot of fun because I got to talk online to some people that I don't often see. It was also difficult because it was a daily thing. I checked Hawaii off my bucket list in 2018, even though I'll probably try to go again. I had a very demanding year at work, which made me talk about retirement an awful lot. I spent a lot of time with my 17 year old during the first half of the year, but hardly saw him the second half because his friends began attending college with him. I got more involved at church by joining a very diverse Sunday School class of ladies between the ages of 19 and 80. Overall, I would call it a very good year!

I'm looking forward to 2019. I have plans to get new flooring, be more active, remove clutter from the house and really pay attention to my kids, my family and my friends. I don't want to be a spectator as life speeds by. I want to grab on and seek the joy in every detail. I want to be grateful for all of God's blessings on us - family, friends, living in the USA, a home, a job, a car, basic needs, and the extravagant living that we take for granted.

Proverbs 10:22 The blessing of the Lord makes one rich, and He adds no sorrow with it. 

Happy New Year! Make it a great one!